LiFe is A Box oF ChoCoLateS

It's 3.48am ... and I'm reading through everyone's blog ... that I could access to and indeed I've learnt much ....

Blogging is indeed not a bad thing ... oh yes we are entitle to our own little opinions ... and yea they are merely opnions after all ... one's penned thoughts ... nonetheless I couldn't agree more to the passing fact that whatever that is penned will be read and thus there will be impacts upon one's life.

I do love bloggin tho I dun exactly stand to testify to that .. the last blog entry was erm ... oh my goodness 6 months ago??!!
And they have been moments and times I've had strong urges to pen every single thought that I've had bottled up within me. I need to be HEARD!!!!
Then again ... there are the other little still voice within me that would remind me ... gosh how would be shud that someone that I've written about reads 'bout it ...
It would hurt that someone eh ...

So what did I do ... well secretz .. a little eh ... me got another real blog cum journal ...
The reason for me to blog is not merely to be heard eh ...
What I'd note is that I journal to remind me of the goodness of Christ and also the blunders in life ... and the lessons that my sweet Jesus had thought me in my journey on planet earth ;)

Had life been a box of chocolates?!!
You never know what you gonna get ...

Learning to love every moment of it is truly a treasured lesson on its own.
Still I truly thank the good Lord for his everlasting grace to remind me of how beautiful live is and can me ...

Is the cup half full or half empty?!
Mine is always in abundancy ... for Jesus had always been there .... even when I'm blind and lost ...

Jesus I love YOU!

Oh yes ... it has been ages since I blogged in last ...
You know the thing that you wanna do it but dun know where to start as there is just too much happening liao ...

Erm ... the work had been a honored blessing to the Lord and from the Lord ...
Got my confrimation review 2 days back .. was pretty impressed by it tho  more like impressed by the Lord.

Even better will be taking the first replacement leave next week .
Am pleased and awesome with the idea .. totally needed one

Tonite it will be preparing for sunday preaching ... my 2nd time at 2nd service and it is a totally killing one .
Wanna know more ... come!

Kay tat's it ... *blek*

Celebrated my burfday with so many close ones .. July indeed is a very special day eh ... cause there is just so many July babies .. one of the blessed months eh ... Pray that in future that one of my babies would be born in July as well

And on the 27th of July, I have been with ING officially for one month!
Gosh time flies eh .. and truly much has happened ...
And the best part of em all is that God is just in the midst of it lor ..

Just 2 days back I was going through the response of the cases submission from the various banks that I've visited over the last month .. and it is simply amazing ya ... God is just all so faithful.
I could still remember telling and asking God why put me into marketing, the business world .. believe me that I am truly not cut for it lor .. there are just so much business tactics that I simply dead against my belief system ... and I know that I am in for a hard time.
I am but a simple hardworking and crazy workaholic that loves to give her best in anything that she does ...  and work had been one that matters much to me .. furthermore I've always believe that we need to be witnesses especially in our workplace .. with our conduct and etc ...

Again I am reminded that He is in-charge of all circumstances at all times and I am merely a blessed vessel for Him to use ...
A truly blessed one as well ...

At every turn of my career path God's hands are just simply directing and holding everything in place ... I could still remember the previous change in career path .... also a blessing
Yup need to stay faithful in seeking Him lor ...

I had one of the most amazing weekend and it is the weekend before my burfday!

Was in Penang on Friday, after stayed over on Thursday nite at Northam Suite, I had a lousy nite there tho the room had been pretty impressive altogether! Had a late meeting with the big boss and it had been pretty scary gwa ... ya ya it is a sales job tho camourflaged by the word servicing ... ya the boss started on the sales figures and had me all worked up. Just couldn't zzz at all. And when I did, I kept on waking up the entire nite. Well forgotten to wake up at 6 tho ... as was kinda late and all lar as we were supposed to be in Prai, Pearlview by 8am.

After a totally full day of training from 9.00am to 5.30pm, had another meeting with the big boss which ended at 7.00pm then only started my journey home.

Gosh it was raining like crazy lor ...
And so was I ... just couldn't take it altogether lor ... was truly scary to me lor ... and I kept on tell the Lord, Lord be with me, stay with me ...
By the time I got home it was 9pm and I was totally exhausted!
Same goes for Saturday, kept on sleeping and all ... took out lots of time praying and seeking the Lord ... still I was total whacko by 10pm I was zzz ...

Worship was pretty kewl, was roostered for being the exhaltator ... kinda excited about it altogether ... but caught be really surprise was that God was even more excited about it altogether ... it was as if He had it all planned out ... gosh, as we sang the last song, I give ... the chorus ... the Lord led me to Luke 7:24 (I think) on the city woman that brought with her an alabaster flask of perfume to anoint and wash the Lord Jesus' feet with .. it was as if the Lord is asking me what is that so precious to you that you would wanna give unto the Lord ....

As if that was sufficient at the end of brother Micheal's preaching on the thief and the gate - John 10:7-10; oh yes there was an altar call .. I knew that the Lord had been calling me lor ...
Gosh it was as I stood there that did I realize how much of my life that been stolen from me ... and as Sandy and brother Micheal prayed over me ... the they declared once again what the Lord had installed for me ... the many promises and the many areas of my life that I need to surrender and give unto my Lord Jesus.
And I knew that the time is right for me to give all that I had been holding on tightly unto the Lord ... yea many are the precious things in my life. But giving unto Him means the best for all ... then I know that I will need to do so ... so I pray for strength and the Lord to be my refuge and fotress and I start running after Him once again ...

He had been ever more faithful.

Thank you Jesus

This is my 3rd week at work officially.
There were the joys as well of the struggles of fitting and adjustment.

After 2 weeks in the field, the Lord had been ever gracious in all ways and truths.
To date I've completed meeting with 39 branches, leaving me with only 11 other branches. Certainly by His grace altogether ...

Just yesterday I was so overwhelmed by despair.
It was at 8pm that I fell on my knees in prayer ... in realization of how messy my life had been.
I've heard a rather shocking news today at work from a close collegue .. left me with lots of wondering thoughts, very very unhealthy ones ... I did in all my strength to not succumb to them .. so I put in the Hope album ... and it was at the song written from Psalm 27 .. to bless the Lord that I was struck awesome.

Some many  many months back when this album was first release, me and another fren was totally crazy about it and we were back at my old office listening to this album aloud and when this song came on .... he ran over and asked me do you know from where did was this song written?! Psalm 27!
What spoke right through me in this song is the chorus, " ... that I will bless the Lord .." it had been my heart's greatest desire to be a blessing to wherever the Lord takes me ... to whom that I will be in touch with ... it had been my deepest prayer that I would be used by Him to touch many lives .

Yet as the months passed by, the waves and storms of life certainly had three me off track ... more then I've ever realize ....  and it was on my knees at that moment that the Lord reminded me of this my desire and how pleased it would be to Him ... What was more amazing is that as He reminded me the very depth of my heart, He said, " that indeed as you desire .. so I would bless you even more abundantly ... more then your nake eyes or your imagination can take you ... across the physical realm ... look into the spiritual realm and belive!"

He was just so good ya ... rekindling the passion of my life ...
Indeed nothing was matters more and even more delightful to please the Lord my God  ...

Yet on the contrary, a sense of despair washed over me ... as I pondered upon my current condition, how I had grew tired and fearful ... my dream had been stolen ... tears poured out buckets and buckets ... gosh!

Even so, He had not forgotten His promises ... as I delighted myself in Him .. He will straightened my path ...
His faithfulness saw me through even when all things fails ....
At the eyes of pain, fear & dissapointments, He whisper His love song to me.. it wasn't I that reached out to Him but it was Jesus that held me right from the begining of it all ... He had it all fashioned out beautifully ... because He first loved ...

Thank you Jesus!